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Saturday, January 20th, 2007
9:45 pm	(6 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Monday, January 15th, 2007
12:28 pm	christmas present for my girlfriend, Casey: and a fuzzy green ball surrounded by blue and violet: Current Mood: pleased Current Music: dead boy and the elephant men (2 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Sunday, November 5th, 2006
10:16 pm	(9 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
4:10 pm	Current Music: the cure (3 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
6:27 pm	i got another job. i'm cooking polymers for the other organic professor who i'm not already doing research for. $8.00/hr from her grant while learning how to actually conduct new useful reactions. that makes 4 jobs and 12 hours of upper level chemistry and physics to keep up with. all work and no play may make me dull boy but this oversized load carries less of a losing-my-mind risk because i'm used to biting off too much. i do it habitually. the beginning of my last year kicked off quietly and anticlimactically which is fine. it has progressed into a couple days a week chemistry and physics homework until i go to bed. and i play lab every afternoon. mondays - polymer research, tuesdays - organic lab ta, wednesdays organometallic research, thursdays physics lab, fridays instrumental analysis lab. and then of course i do my study group for organic lecture... but its the second time around and the only difference is the larger number of constituents since the classes are larger in the fall than summer. other than that i'm painting a picture when i get a chance and drinking irresponsibly on weekends. i lift weights only 3 days a week and .... i guess thats about all i do. i took the GRE a couple weeks ago and came out with a below what i needed score. it was very disappointing. i'll have to actually study for it and take it again since i've never taken the classes that the material on it actually comes from. gotta find time to do that and apply to graduate programs for next year. Current Mood: tired Current Music: panic at the disco (6 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Friday, September 1st, 2006
9:52 am	(6 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Thursday, August 24th, 2006
4:42 pm	(1 circus act | arouse my suspicion)
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
8:20 am	damn it feels good to be a gangsta: new art given to friends for their home: Current Mood: content Current Music: david bowie "crystal japan" (1 circus act | arouse my suspicion)
Sunday, August 13th, 2006
2:58 pm	summer school ended friday. it went well. i met a lot of interesting people just towards the end of it. spent the weekend in new orleans with pat and becky. we watched someone die. driving northbound on I-59 from N.O. to slidell, over the lake, there were these two guys in a red truck in front of us. the dude was driving erratically, hit another car, swerved and went right over the rail, making a nosedive into the lake below. the truck sank rather quickly, one of the guys made it to the surface, in shock, blood coming out of his face, there was a boat nearby, a guy jumped in, rescued him and got him on the boat, and they got him to an ambulance. the other guy's body was recovered later. i've seen death before so the whole thing didnt really affect me. but other than that the weekend was fun and uneventful. i'll be around baton rouge for about a week. taking the GRE on the 30th, wish me luck, i need to do well so i can get into whatever program i want and get paid and not be poor. ;) so i'll need to start applying for those programs soon, before its too late. hopefully i'll have time to paint the next couple weeks. Current Mood: hot Current Music: moody blues (3 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
8:56 am	Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: sphongle "it speaks" (4 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Monday, June 12th, 2006
10:45 am	the weekend was fun. i threw my housewarming party. we had a good time. not as many people as were expected showed up, so there are 3 gallons of left over yummy trashcan punch in the fridge. it should stay good for a couple weeks at least considering the high everclear/rum content. i will have to find some use for the surplus though. maybe jugs of alcoholic punch make good gifts. maybe i'll have to host another gathering next weekend. other than that... i've just been monopolizing the organic chemistry business: teaching assistant for organic lab. tutoring job, doing the study group for the class. working about 30-35 hours a week with those activities. i hope i was objective enough in grading their notebooks this weekend. i wasnt as mean as usual. and then their is that core curriculum history class i'm taking. its so boring. the first test is tomorrow. i need to memorize more words before then. the chem dept chair gave me an extr 500 in scholarship money for next year, but i find out that it results in the loss of like 850 in grant money. i did good and was rewarded and it resulted in a 400 dollar net loss in financial aid. thats fucked up. i will have to speak to someone about this. i like living by myself. i started some new paintings but they are not finished yet. maybe this week. Current Music: vnv nation "joy" (2 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
7:25 pm	moving and starting summer school at the same time sucks, but as busy as it was i managed this week well enough. one more load of stuff to bring to the new apartment which i much like, the last load includes this computer that i must momentarily disassemble, saying goodbye to internet access in the home for now at least. more later (2 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
11:18 am	bon voyage into S.C. writing from clemson univeristy in south carolina. i'm here because my friend tom needed help moving from louisiana to here. the move went smoothly, he only took out a small tree and small concrete pillar thing with the uhaul truck. the drive was kind of harsh. we finished unloading everything yesterday afternoon. had a marguarita at a local mexican resturant, watched this documentary about the inconsistancies in the 911 attack covor story. people are so dumb. sit back and praise jesus while the elite gradually consolidate global wealth and power in their hands at the expense of the entire world. whats going to stop the financial intitutions from destroying us the way they are doing to the third world? so while tom was running errands for his political consultant friend we are staying with here, i figured i might as well check out the graduate chemistry program at clemson. The have a good department, i will certainly apply here. i'm not dead set on any particular geographic location to continue my education. i could go anywhere. it might be preferable, of course, to go somewhere where i know at least someone. i need to figure out what schools i wish to apply to in the next few months. i think Brandeis has an excellent program for what i want to do... but i dont know about adapting to cold ass boston weather since i'm quite accustomed to the hot climate of the deep dirty south. Oklahoma is an option, but i think i'd rather something more east coast. So Clemson might be a good choice. Of course, there is much more research to be done. So once Tom dropped me off here... I wondered around aimlessly in search of coffee which i finally obtained at the student union which i found once i finally decided to ask a student how to get there. There i obtained coffee, a map, and directions to the chemistry building which is triangle shaped. so i continued accross this foreign terrain, found the chemistry office, got lots of information from this nice girl there. and then, set off for the library, carefully camoflaged as a student here, i blended into the crowd, found public computers, and here i sit, rambling on livejournal. are you reading this? we will drive back to lousiana tonight and tomorrow. and saturday i get to go to my cousin's wedding and hopefully have time to finish a painting over the weekend. then next week, back to texas for summer. i have work lined up summer as a teaching assistant for organic I and II labs, and SI leader(tutor who does study group for class) for oganic I and II. so... i'll sit through organic again, just like last summer, except this time i'll be getting paid, and not graded of course. and i'll take a couple bullshit core classes i need to get out of the way, a history and an english lit. guess i'll be pretty busy. and i'll have to move soon. but i'll have to line that out when i get back in town. looks like i'll have to get a single bedroom apartment for my last year, which will be fine. twice as expensive, but i can manage for one year. the clemson campus is very pretty. they have fountains and much of the campus is like a forest. i like that. Current Mood: contemplative (3 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
4:25 pm	commissioned art a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"></a> Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: the doors "the end" (2 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Monday, March 6th, 2006
2:53 pm	(6 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
8:24 pm	last week i found out what a real abstract drug warning lable like "may cause mood disturbances" really means and it wasnt pretty. i can deal with many things, but total lack of control over my emotional state is not one of them. a few nights of actually sleeping and a prompt discontinuation of that medicine and i'm pretty well back to normal. P-chem II test wednesday, sociology test thursday. i should probably study for the sociology test but quantum mechanics just seems so much more important, leaving for TAS in beaumont with some chemistry people thursday. coming back saturday. last week sucked. i'm feeling better now. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: smashing pumpkins "mayonaise" (4 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Friday, February 24th, 2006
9:44 am	"word cloud" of my blog i dont know for sure which of those medications prevented me from sleeping at all last night, since there were about 5, but if i had to guess i'd say it was the steroid, not taking anymore of that one! Current Mood: frazzled (4 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
8:11 pm	been sick like for a week... conjestion, started coming down with bronchitis the other day, went to the doctor today, got prescribed a cocktail of medicines... some steroid, antibiotics... no codeine cough syrup though :( and they gave me a shot of something, breathing treatment... the week has been hectic, but at least monday in senior project lab, when i had to mix up arsenious acid, i didnt spill any arsenic on myself. that was the highlight of my week, still alive and and all. i dont have time to be sick. had this first date planned with this girl i like for saturday night. which... if i'm still sick then... plan ruined. maybe. when the future has never looked brighter, and so many perfectly thought out well intentioned well executed plans.. and yet some unforseeable wave of random and unforseen bad circumstances wipes me out... i wonder, do i perphaps, just have really bad karma? i think i was just running myself into the ground, being busy with chemistry all the time, lifting weights all the time, partying on the weekends as hard as i would study, maybe it was just a little too much and weighted me down. if someone fails from trying to hard and crumbling from exhaustion, is it any different from failing from not trying at all? ... of course there i go refering to minor bad situations in such absolute terms. i should have known to expect that it may be a bit too much. yet of course i cant quit any of it. i have invested too much time, too much capital and hopefully today's cloud of negativity will soon dissipate and i'll return to my at least marginally optimistic normal self.... i wonder if that steroid is affecting my mood. that side effects list was a mile long, i think i stopped reading after vaginal discharge, not that that one would really affect me too much. ;) but i probably shouldnt write much when i'm on medication. my view of reality could be warped in ways that are totally unforseable Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: silence (2 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
12:01 pm	i painted this last night as a background for my next painting. my roommate andrew told me it looked like it could be something on its own. now, i dont know if i want to paint anything over it or not. i like the way it flows. Current Music: vnv nation "rubicon" (13 circus acts | arouse my suspicion)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
12:09 pm	despite a long night of debauchery for my roommate andrew's birthday i feel very good today, very positive. yesterday was quite a day, after 5 hours of physical chemistry homework, andrew, jen and i went to casa thomas, had dinner, had wicked awesome casa margauritas, sara and our dear sga president amber lara met us at anex where we drink more and danced like skanky hos. i made the image of the good prophet of islam my desktop background, hopefully my home does not come under jihad. i dont understand why a civilization would ever forsake its values to appease bands of primitive savages who really believe in their repressive psychotic myths about how only they worship god correctly, and how god wants everyone else to die and takes pleasure in their suffering because they do not believe in the right myths. how can one live peacefully with someone who sincerely believes that their god wants them to kill their infedel neighbors? the religion of peace, yeah right, draw a line around the muslem world, between the countries that have a majority of muslems and those that do not, and there is not one peaceful border. pakistan/india, ex-soviet republics, chechnya, serbia/albania, cetral africa, sudan... why cant anyone get along with muslems? maybe its them and not everyone else that is the problem. islam has been spreading for centuries, by the edge of the sword, people chose to convert rather than to die. i think they have a vision of the world that is more than worth resisting. they would create a world where people are punished for their ideas by bands of uneducated men, where women are forever repressed, a world with no opportunity for freedom of expression, a world that sucks, ok i'm done with my islam = crap rant. but after reading multiple articles in the paper that wont dare beyond the realm of politically correct to discuss the true nature of the problems in the world today, i like producing a little composition on the issue, since i live in a country where i dont have to die for speaking against the ridiculous fairytale view of the world other people choose to believe in. i guess i should actually start taking care of this shit i have to do today... laundry, quantitative analysis lab report, force myself to study for quant test, cook something for dinner, grade the stack of organic II lab reports Current Mood: chipper Current Music: nine inch nails "a warm place" (arouse my suspicion)